Okay, first i'd like to say, if you don't care or don't bother reading this, feel free to leave this thread.
Some of you might of have noticed that i have been away for some time now. I have had some serious familiy problems going on, and i feel depressed, and i feel like giving up on everything. This thread isn't made to get everyones attention or anything. Just to tell everyone how i feel, so i might get better and less depressed afterwards.
First i want to talk about my cousin. He lived with my moms sister, (my aunt) and her husband for 14 years or so. My cousin has been mistreaten in many diffrent ways. Sitting outside the house the hole night freezing and crying. afraid to come and get beaten up. he has been throwed out of windows, hes room and hes stuff has been destroyed several times. I don't know all the things which has been happening, but i know he has been having a bad life. Me and him has allways been like brothers. We played as kids, and i didn't really notice anything (he has allways been a strong kid) Right know he is 21 years old, he can't work and he drinks too much. He killed hes best friend in a car accident, and he really feels like going suicide all the time, also he wants to kill my aunts exhusband.
My aunt has been mistreaten too. Burning oil has been spilled down on her on purpose, she has been beaten and a lot of others things i don't know...
My younger cousins has seen violent things from they got borned. they have seen my aunt trying to fight back her hussband, and lots of things like that, my aunt once called me. she was crying in the phone asking for help, i could her my younger cousins screaming and crying in the background. i was crying and didn't know what to do other than contacting the police.
That was my aunt and my cousins..
Now to my mother who has been sick for 2 years now. She has pains all the time, the doctors can't do anything because its a braindamage, which let's her think that she has pain. (which she really doesn't have, but because she thinks it, signals goes to her body and down to the spots which she "thinks" hurts.) It's really hard to explain. She is really tired all the time, she sleeps 14+ hours a day because she takes dosins of pills which doesn't really help much on the situation. She is married with a man which likes kids (the pervert way) he has been misstreaten my sister in a sexual way when she was 13 years old. after 2 years she moved to me and my father and told us everything. My dad got mad, (i did too) and called the local. Now a big case is up, and my sister is afraid that my moms exman wants to kill her for saying the truth, She told that my moms exman also has been touching my younger cousin. So he'll probably get 3 years in jail, hopefully more for hes actions.
3 months later my sister came to me and my dad. We moved into a bigger place (a house) which some of you allready know about. I lost my stable connection and everything. It was a brand new start for all of us. But my sister wanted to screw it all up more than it was. So in school she told that my dad had a problem with alcohol. That's untrue, he once got some pills for it, because he was depressed, and stressed from work. So once my sister found those pills again she thought that my dad drank way too much.
My dad was droven into the hospital, he was in chock because my sister went off from home. She sent him an sms where she asked him to stop drinking alcohol... he feeled like a bad father and everything. My sister realized she was wrong, but she liked all that attention she got, and everyone who feeled sorry for her. So 4 days after she yelled at my dad because she wanted to sleep with the dog, my dad couldn't take all that, so hes girlfriend asked her to shut up and go to bed, but she didn't want to. She took a grab on her mouth and told her to go to bed with no more discussion about that subject. the day after she was gone, and she had hurten herself so everyone thought it was my dads girlfriend who had misstreaten her. (which was wrong, i was there myself, and she didn't do anything wrong) Now 3 days ago i got called by the police because they wanted to know what actually happend.
I'm afraid my sister goes suicide, i've heard she really feels bad about everythting. I'm afraid of lossing the contact to my mom, haven't heard or speaked with her since christmas, and since she doesn't even call me, my sister or my dad, means she doesn't care shit. She thinks her man is innocent, which is prooven wrong in so many things.
Sorry if this was too much to read, just wanted to let everyone know, i allready feel better by posting this. i got some other problems too, but they are nothing compared to all the things i have to think about everyday. I'm so afraid for my oldest cousin. He is really like a brother to me, i can't describe the connection between him and me..
Well, that was all, feel free to comment as you wish. Please don't say silly things as i'm pretty depressed about this.
Thanks for reading, and understanding