I've been having quite a lof of depressions for awhile. I've been up in fights with my dad, he's been a real prick to me. Some of you may know he tried to shoot himself with a shotgun earlier last year. I've been trying to help him move on ever since, but he refuses my help, and i feel like it's my fault. Atleast, i used to.
Some weeks ago he pissed me off, and i told him i hated him, and that i would never see him anymore, mainly because he's always drunk and shit.
I feel bad about everything, i've lost so many friends, i've been an unsocialized person. I feel so alone in my own little apartment. Everything is fucked up. I've been so negativ lately, my girlfriend can confirm that, LOL. I've been thinking of hurting myself, haven't come that far yet, but close.
Now, i've come to think... "What have i contributed to the forum lately?" Money making methods.. Which leads to a lot of hate against me. Stroh is one of many who hates me. Wont go into further details. I feel bad about myself, i've been through a lot of weekends and days with no sleep.
If you want to flame me for being emotional and shit, please go on, cause i don't really care. You can't make my day worser than it already is.
With this... I wont be active here for some time. I feel like shit, nobody to talk with (only my gf) and that's basicly it. I might go to a psychologist as i did ˝ a year ago. I don't know yet.
See you guys around.